I'm new here and thought I should introduce myself. Actually, I'm looking for some guidance. I've read some of the threads and it seems like there are some enlightened souls here who may be able to provide me with some guidance. There was one thread that mentioned feeling cursed and I have to say I feel the same way. First, I will admit that I do have a somewhat negative attitude but I feel this is more than that. It's hard to be positive when everything in your life has been negative. I've had my fair share of tragedies but it seems like even the simple things become complicated and ever positive step turns into ten negative ones. I just honestly don't know how much more I can take. I've tried cleansing baths and rituals but nothing seems to change. Also, to tell you a bit about myself, I was raised Catholic but I've always felt that something was missing and I've always found myself drawn to a different path. Even as a child I was fascinated with candles, incense and starting reading books on natural magic and stuff when I was old enough. I've met people who have told me I am an old soul and others who have said I'm a natural witch but I don't know. The only psychic abilities that I seem to have is that I know things sometimes, I can seem to read people meaning that I usually know whether they are genuine or have alternative motives and I can smell death. I smell roses a few days to a week before someone dies but I never know who, when or where. I just want to live a quiet, peaceful life but negativity seems to follow me. I hope someone can help. I'm sorry for making this so long.

Well, I guess the negativity around me is so dark and thick that no one else even wants to bother replying. I guess I'll have to seek guidance elsewhere.

See! You jumped the gun and did'nt even give us a chance to talk to you.

So this is my suggestion ( that is if you're still here)...

Start working on changing your perspective about your life.
Start working on changing your perspective of the world. You will only get what you expect out of things, because you won't be able to see anything else and you will set things up to get what you expect. There is a buddhist proverb about this but I can't remember all of the details.

Welcome to the site and the forums.

Thank you for replying heroheidR. Yes, I did jump the gun. Things have been rough lately. I guess I'm just defensive and feeling sorry for myself. I know I need to change my perspective. I try but I guess I'm not trying hard enough. It's hard to change old habits, I suppose. I appreciate the advice though.

I have an Idé of why you feels like this.

You don't really feel sorry about yourself. do you? I believe I see in you that feeling sorry for oneself is a bad thing. The most people think that way. You can't just dicide to think positive on all in life now, can you?

I suggest that you allow yourself to truely feel sorry about yourself for a start. If you do you are not a bad person, you are not even gay if you think that way Nature has given us the ability to greif. We should do that.

Feel free to make a thread here about all if you havn't any one else to talk to. The important thing is that you lay out everything out from your mind so that you can se the picture. Then get a new perspective on the things that have been.

to think positive on the future I think you need a trigger. If you do those two first steps you might have find it allready, or else you will eventually find your trigger (as long as you are searching for it). When you do, you will get one chance to build on the hope. If you manage with that you should have more and more positive perspective.

Well this was very detailed and maybe not your life. It was an example of how it could be. And I think you are somthing like that. This was tips, not guidelines. See if anything of it works for you or else it's rubish and don't bother using them I hope somthing of it works for you. If only one thing works, you are one step closer to your goal.


I also must say, I don't know what happened to you. But you seem really strong. To jugde my feeling about you, others would not stand what you go trhough right now. You may feel weak, but thats becouse you'r tired. When life comes back to you, and things get better (yes, they will if you work on it) You will be really strong in yourself. Thats a big positive in you as a person. And hats why I think you can do it

Hello Desmond,

Your assessment of me is quite accurate. Years of negative circumstances happened to me but I won't bore you with the details. Actually, I was very positive at one time but I guess I let the circumstances bring me down to a depth of negativity I couldn't climb out of. You are right in saying that I'm tired. I am emotionally exhausted. My husband always told me that he admired my mental strength whereas I admired his physical strength so I guess we were each strong in our own way. I guess I've just reached a point where I'm tired of having to be strong. Thank you for your advice. I value the opinions of others which is why I have asked for guidance here.

FIRST OF ALL WELCOME TO THE SITE.

TO ADD MY 2 CENTS WORTH.... I'M WITH APRIL HERE. IF YOUR MIND IS TELLIN YOU THAT YOU ONLY ATTRACT BAD THINGS THEN THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT WILL HAPPEN. ALSO, DIFFICULT THINGS HAPPEN IN LIFE AND THEY ARE MENT TO BE A LEARNING EXPERIENCE. WE ALL HAVE THEM. THERE IS THE OLD SAYING THAT IF LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS, MAKE LEMONADE. THAT MEANS TO FIND THE POSITIVE IN EVERY NEGATIVE. IF EVERYTHING ALWAYS WORKS SMOOTHLY WE WOULDN'T ET THE LEARNING LESSON THE UNIVERSE REQUIRES OF US.
I KNOW YOU ARE READY TO GIVE UP AND THROW IN THE TOWEL BUT FIRST YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN AND TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND THINK.
PEACE, ROMANA